Hope You Know

So today, I wasn't particularly having a bad day, but there had been some bad instances. I was feeling kind of down because I don't feel like I'm really contributing much at work or filling my whole job description, sometimes it seems like all I'm doing is sweeping the hair up of the barber shop floor. I know someone has to, but I wish I could do more sometimes... and Dave was frustrated and I didn't know what to do to help him not be.
And I've been jealous because we didn't get to go on a honeymoon, and while we're having an adventure, we aren't going to make near the money we'd hoped, and I was scared for a few days that I was pregnant and I didn't want to be pregnant and not excited about it... Just down...

Then today I was just browsing friends blogs and I randomly clicked on a friend of a friends blog (I know its kinda creepy, but it helps me to ignore my troubles if I read about someone elses). And I came across a woman who was on her 4th pregnancy, she'd lost the 3 previous. And this video was on her sight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wz41YxNiHEg&eurl=http%3A%2 %2Fcloudsarefarbehindme.blogspot.com%2F&feature=player_embedded

Sorry, i couldn't figure out how to add it as a video... But it really struck me. Hopefully it will have the same effect on you as it did on me.

Is it bad?

Is it bad that I already wish I could redo my entire wedding day? Not relive necessarily, but redo, entirely?

I wouldn't redo Dave though. I would never redo dave.

I'm over it, but I guess this should be a lesson to all you non marrieds out there... do your wedding planning on DavidsBridal.com Seriously.